Was I Ever a Child
A child is supposed to fly without limits
In manner of play and imagination
A child is supposed to be loved
Taught how to love
How to go beyond
Yet,
It doesn’t always happen …
Not as it should
A child loses their inspiration for life
Becoming lost in other people’s faults and lacks
In so many disillusions and unknown affection
Taking one step towards a dream was wrong because of manmade rules
Rules that had nothing to do with that dream
Rules that had nothing to do with wanted adventures
Taking one step to love was supposed to be of great wonders
Yet, was distracted by another road that led to fear and unwanted words
If you spoke - consequences were gained
If you cried - you were known as weak
If you ran - where would you go?
Trying to reach out of your limits was impossible
Harsh words were spoken giving a false reality
Setting in a belief that you were disabled in some way or form
A touch that lacked love, but was full of destruction's’ and distractions
When looking in the mirror caused tears to flow
Along with the belief that there is no beauty, in or out
Who can I find? What can I do? Where can I go?
The only answers found were the ones created within oneself
Or what another person’s hatred would speak
Right or wrong it was the only choice
Growing up wasn’t easy
But a hard character developed and a hypocritical spirit was found
Finally standing without choice
Facing the pain and destruction created by the surroundings
Staring with anger and hatred
Willing to destroy
Whether good or bad, liked or not
The options taken were the ones given
The reason being were one’s given without choice
One day came to be
All of a sudden a new realization
Words of love and wonder poured into an empty space
Something never known before
Someone known, yet not known at the same time
Spoken words created a new dream
I CAN fly I CAN dream
I HAVE destiny I HAVE new options
I’ve begun to find, do and run
The answer was always at my reach
Never ceasing to follow
One day came with a complete turn around
The reality of being loved
The reality of making love
Learning how to forgive and forget
In so many different ways
Strength and loyalty was gained
Being outspoken in truth and reality
Realizing that tears are another form of strength
Crying and letting others cry with and on you
I thank You, my God
I may have walked the long road, but I did walk
Given the wrong map, but I finally found the right one
I arrived where I need to be
I’m headed to better and beyond
I have no limits, but I do give limits
I thank You, my God
I’m able to live and let live
The limits given taught me a better way
Redirection is now an option
Because the map given is to a limitless road
I thank You, my God
For my loss and for my gain
For my love and for loves to come
